what really happened.
Saturday was the day that shook my world.
My friend called me up to ask if I wanted a job.
In excitement, I gladly took up the job.
On that very first day of work, I thought I would be able to work with my friends.
To my surprise, none of them was going to work today.
I was thought that I was going to work on my own.
So I went down to the store and in amazement, it was a hong kong based dessert store.
I was devastated as my mandarin was way off the edge.
At that point of time I told myself, it's to do or not to do.
But, what have I got to lose.
So I went into the store to take a shot.
Biting my lips to hope I won't say anything stupid, I asked the supervisor that I came for work.
She told me to get a tee-shirt and start working.
I was surprised.
I turn to the direction where my supervisor pointed as to where the shirts are.
This is where I knew, there's nothing to regret for the rest of the day.
Because I saw a girl I thought I would have never met.

a dream
The girl and I were together, working at the store.
Only this time, the store was now even bigger.
Every time after work, we would hang out somewhere and have fun.
The girl also has a pet cat.
Whenever she finishes work, the cat will come and find her.
One day when I had to work overtime without her, she bought me a stuffed husky.
I was so happy.
The next day after work with her, her cat didn't find her this time.
We rushed to her home to search for a cat.
Her cat was sick!
So we brought the cat to the vets.
Strange thing is, the vets attends to humans too.
The vet said that the cat is feeling quite well right and needs to come back tomorrow.
The girl agreed.
On the next day, she didn't came to work.
Probably with her cat.
As my work ended, it was raining cats and dogs.
When I got home drenched, my mum told me that many people's pets are falling sick.
I told my mum that the girl's pet was also sick yesterday.
She was speechless.
The next day at work, she wasn't here today.
Second day came along without her.
The third day came.
She was not at work still.
I was worried.
Then I glanced at my stuffed husky.
It looked like as if it was sick!
Quickly rush down to her house.
But no one is home.
I went down to the vet.
He told me nobody of such sort came.
I was devastated.
Then, my mum tapped me on the shoulder and said that I was in the queue.
Surprised, I ask my mum why she's here.
She said she was sick.
When attending to the vet, she told me, the pet's that were sick all died.
I felt a nail in my heart hammered.
after that, I fetched my mum home.
I told myself, it wasn't over.
So I waited for many days for the girl.
My husky still looks sick.
It was heart wrenching until the mum suddenly asked me to follow her to the vets.
She said that the girl was being quarantined due to the sick pet.
I was in relieve but still very worried.
I asked the vets where is she.
They said they don't know.
My mum took their files and saw the girl's pet cat.
The vets didn't know.
My mum whispered to my ear and said, the funeral.
I was clueless.
I went to almost every funeral.
Suddenly, one of the funeral was weird looking.
I approached the funeral and saw the girl!
I was filled with contentment.
I ran to her but, she was crying over her cat.
All of the sudden, the husky I had as a gift looked ever healthy.
The cat opened her eyes and jumped onto the girl.
One thing I don't understand is that, the gift she gave to me was the gauge of our connection.
The cat was her happiness gauge.
When she saw the husky, she smiled like no other.
That happened to revived the cat.
I left my husky with the cat and the girl and I was happily working together again.

When I woke up from this dream, my face was filled with tears.
I actually dreamt of you..
Yes.
The one who gave me the husky.

Sometimes, when you're accused of being selfish as to think for yourself only, can really boil your brain juice.
See, I don't really not care at all but still, I try not to make it obvious.
Why?
Something's are meant for this way.
You can't just change things at will.
Things just got to adapt if changes are made.
It's not that hard yet, not that simple.
I don't blame anyone but you got to know what's best for everyone around us.

Going to change for the better. =)

I wish I could see you again, like all the memories I build up in my head....
But until then I will wait.

I wish you could see me, in the same way I see you....
But until then I will wait

I wish our souls could connect, like the darkness connects the light of the stars...
But until then I will wait.

I wish we could fall in love, in the same way I dreamed we would...
But until then I will wait.

I know I don't have patience, but for you I'm willing to wait.
'cos somewhere I know I'm waiting for the right raison de'tre, for the right person.

With you in my heart, I don't mind the waiting.
Time can change, and nothing in this life is certain...so until then I will wait for you.

Now I know it's hard to tell whether or not if it's true but, it's been a whole year.
I've never felt this way before. Well this sucks.
Haven't been updating my blog because I don't see a need to.
But, I guess I would update it because people are tagging me! Hello xinman!
Anyway, not doing much these days other then wasting my life over the computer.
Had practices too. Tuesdays, thursdays, and Saturdays.
It's not like last time where we had Mondays to Fridays. Oh and Saturdays for tutor session.
It was all worth it and turns out that, after mr lin came back, the band's sounds is improving again!
Awesome but really, can't seem to figure why can't some people just don't appreciate things that they do have.
What's more, the opportunity they get it's so small to get, and they just walk off like this isn't part of my life.
Come on. Grow up already. Your 13 and handling solo performances!
That's what I want! Well, not that I don't have any but, the whole piece was yours!
And now you are abandoning us like that. What nonsense.
Anyway, it's 2:36am right now and I am going to cook supper!
Getting hungrier by the minute.
Damn. Okay! Goodnight!